Cleverly Other Perspectives

Insights and Themes
JazzAura

 

20260907, Mon
Most people do not know how easy it is to play piano. One typically believes it is for intelligent individuals only, or for the rich ones. Especially modern digital pianos, which do not need to be tuned, for instance, create soon a fascinating environment. Take your hands, strike a chord on any keys of your keyboard, so as it is comfortable, and combine this chord with melodies that you simply make with the black keys and the white keys in combination and in variety, and not with any music theory, as you prefer, as you naturally do, concerning the course of your fingers. That’s the chromatic. Not too fast! Slow music feels much better. Because the tones are absolute in pitch, it sounds good, you know. Easy, for everyone, I say.

20260727, Mon
Because of my driving licence, I have got the medication in the form of an injection in the shoulder for years. And something happened the last time. A muscle haematoma showed up that prevents me from making music. It looks as if it takes ages to build down, which makes me quite angry already. A similar thing happened in a blood test, from which I developed an aversion to needles, I think. Sometimes, doctors demand other things as well, and I do not like to cooperate, because things happen accidentally. Now, I am left with a haematoma, only to realize that one cannot do very much. Isn’t the medical system developing in the direction of medication-injections? Well, I see back in this respect, but without having much understanding of it. And I doubt so much that I lost my trust.

20260629, Mon
If I would have the violin as the only instrument that I play, it only then would be effective against bigger mood troubles. But this is not me! Always, I was a very lively individual, which mirrors itself in playing several instruments. Now, by cooling my neck with fridge-cooled brown rice while making music, it’s all easier again, and switching between the instruments does not cause much troubles anymore. The artist name “Tom J. Change” represents again the multi-instrumental character of me as an improvising musician. Originally, it stood for modulations on the piano, but I do not do anything with changing into other keys, currently. And so, it’s a long, long music day with a few instruments.

20260626, Fri
Many musicians intend to change the world, so that it gets a better place. Fact is that I myself never intended it, so far. But what is left when there are no modulations on the piano anymore, or no switching between the instruments. Artificial Intelligence and me found out that the violin is the best instrument, in my situation. And if I look around, it’s difficult to find ideas that would concretely change the world. The artist name “Tom J. Change” is not really relevant anymore, at least not now. How could I make the people focus on a better diet, for example? This is rather wish-thinking, and I do not like to become an activist. Well, there is no pressure at all, actually. The people come to me, this or that way. And when I now inform myself with Microsoft Copilot, for sure, I start to understand the connections between many general things, and would simply thematize a problem, in the hope that it would influence someone.

20260518, Mon
My two digital saxophones got damaged on their sensors by blowing too strongly, as I believed. But it looks as if these instruments repaired themselves. An ongoing thought of mine has always been that digital pianos or devices can be remote-controlled, because sometimes strange things happen. Nearly, it’s logical that I am monitored. So, I am having an audience, and this audience guides me with these strange things that happen. To say, if it is not wanted that I blow the saxophone very strongly, for example, strange things happen. It all makes it exciting. In this modern world, with some modern musical equipment, I do not play for my own, even though I am living in solitude still. Hello people! It just takes a while, I am afraid.

20260509, Sat
My schizophrenic voices disappear gradually. This week, I received the medication in the form of an injection, and, being very close to it, still, the brain is very calm and clear. Before the injection, there are voices in the morning, where the brain is also quite disordered. It simply tells me that the brain needs to be trained somehow, so that it is stronger against disorderliness. And as I now try to concentrate more closely when I am jamming to some accompaniment, I realize that there happen some movements in the head. That would be training the brain, and I hope that this has also results on the mood, not only on the voices.

20260410, Fri
The modern world is full of problems. As a result, people frequently smoke and drink. It gets a habit and an addiction, and soon they long for more. There are party societies that have nothing else to do than to close themselves. Well, I as a multi-instrumentalist have so much to do that there is not a minute for partying. And I imagine to give a concert, and, also, that many individuals in the audience are high on drugs. That’s when I say it is not possible. Personally, I do not like to play for people who are on drugs, and not even for people who would be drunken. My music is equipped with an aura of truth, and drugs do not belong to truth. Drugs are a lie!

20260308, Sun
In my case of Schizophrenia, a mood is everything. No technique, no rhythm, or sound has helped for longer so far. And also green tea or coffee has the best effect in a small amount, sustainably. That’s why I know that musicians are on the wrong road. Well, they are smoking, they are drinking, and they are doping, typically. This all makes them addicted, and destroys their ability to make music precisely. It needs to come from the body, you know. Natural endorphins, I mean. The situation you get from jogging for half an hour. Luckily, I found a technique with the saxophone. Clockwise, I go my rounds in a small circle, and blow out the air repertoire slowly in one take without interruption. All the other things don’t work, in my case. So, why don’t you stop consuming, and make music by body?

20260210, Tue
Both of my digital saxophones that I have been playing are damaged to some degree. Some keys make noises, which comes from too much pressure that I did exert on a particular key region at the beginning of playing this type of instrument. But by a certain technique, it is all the same. And the sensor is damaged due to heavily blowing that I tried on both saxophones, before realizing the damage. This makes me play with very low volume, so that I would not hear the defect in the voices. In this respect, it’s actually the best way to play these saxophones, since the voices are not stable enough, by novelty. So, with all the other musical instruments and things in my possession, I should look at what I have now, and translate it into powerful equipment for music-making as therapy. And here it starts to make fun.

20260128, Wed
As a musician, one needs a few instruments and devices. Constantly, informing is necessary. And then there is bought a new device or instrument with all the thrill that is accompanied. In my little music world, some things are damaged and others not in use anymore. Musicians have to undergo a decision. Do I really need something new? Actually, I am probably too lazy to let repair the things, where some cannot be repaired anymore maybe. But what should one do with damaged things? It’s best when one really thinks it through before one intends to buy musical equipment. On the other hand, there are situations in which one can perfectly integrate an old device into one’s performance. Well, I just try to use the things I have.

20250507, Wed
If one looks for musicians on social media, one often finds extremely fast music. When I think about it, as a musician myself, I can only believe that one is doping, nowadays, because I do not by far reach the speed of them. Regularly, in sports, there are doping scandals. It’s cheating, as it is in music, and, worse, that music is nailing and eating into the listener’s soul. If one observes young children, while a family is drinking coffee and eating cake, for example, the young children are bothered by their parents who talk on end, neglecting calls of them typically. That’s coffee. And dopamine bothers the audience. The people feel better when they drink alcohol, listening to extremely fast music, since it closes the senses, and then these unreal and how-can-one-do-this situation is in the foreground rather. As a multi-instrumentalist, I do not find their music good. Instead, I find it spoiling actually. They appear as if they do not listen, in my eyes, and this can be reduced to these substances. Their music is like these substances, not coming to a halt, not coming to a point. One misses the essence of music. Where is the depth, the focus, the meaning, or story? ‘Addicted Fanatics’ fits well. But that wouldn’t be without it. An attitude would make it: No cheating anymore!

20250504, Sun
The modern world is full of internet surfing, and also full of divorces. In my opinion, there is a connection. When I am surfing on the internet, soon, a low mood plagues me, which I realize especially afterwards. It’s because it is strenuous for the brain, as it is for everyone. So, everyone is in a low mood after surfing, in your case it is just not pain. And then one oversaw the time, and other family members complain, where you in your exhausted state get angry, which results in a dispute. To oversee the time would have a simple reason: consumption. Drinking coffee or tea while surfing extends the sessions, and you do too much. Probably, I have a solution for this dilemma. Consume your coffee or tea after surfing on the internet, where you would get your mood back, you would not oversee the time, and other family members are treated much softer because of your mood you are in from coffee or tea.

20250503, Sat
Digital Music Distribution seems to be in a tough competition. For me, as a musician with a mental disorder, who can only do his music flexibly at home, it was a nice and easy time with some Music Distribution, which now but closes its business. They give several reasons for their decision, including a complaint that there were streaming cheaters that cannot be easily controlled and followed in detail. And that’s what makes me believe that musicians have all sorts of problems which requires nothing but money. As a result, their music is poor, because they try to create music which doesn’t run their nose, but should bring profit. Typically, a musician smokes and drinks alcohol. So, they can’t really use their income for their music and have to feed their addiction and style of living. Making music can be quite different. In my case, it has become a reliable therapy that functions as a medication, without cigarettes or drugs. Many musicians do not know what music can do. Music has a spirit. Take care of this spirit, and you get back something valuable. Fact is, one has to have a foundation for this, so that one does not need to focus on money, and then music is much, much better.

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Paranoid Schizophrenia, brain disorder
Thomas Neubauer

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